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Welcome students and colleagues, friends and family, if you have made it this far, I encourage you to stay a bit longer and read about some of my work. The writings reflect many of the thoughts that I carry with me throughout the course of a day, evening, and often times, the dreams that take hold of me while I sleep. The verses represent the inner voice in me that speaks of the past, the present, and the future. Writing is my ultimate form of expression that allows me to reflect, inspire, get well, and grow. The energy that feeds my work, I pull from themes that correspond to Mesoamerica, my ancestral place of birth, and the area I study. References to symbols of the past, deities, and natural phenomenon, dominate certain pieces, and blend with current verses of life, love, and death. I have never taken a writing class... the only "style" that exhibits my work is the one that I create from my imagination, heart, and dreams.

I’m an avid builder and horticulturalist, and so I spend a lot of my time building things and growing different types of herbs and plant food. I do not identify as an artist nor do I make art for aesthetic purposes; my work solely materializes a ritual-ceremonial or utilitarian function. The craft of working with wood I learned from my father, by watching him design and build homes throughout much of my adolescent youth. I also learned how to work with stone by watching my uncles construct brick and rock landscapes, in the wealthy neighborhoods were they labored during much of the 1980s, when construction was booming. My paternal grandpa Juan was also a craftsman, hence why all his sons became builders of some sort, and so building has always been an integral part of my family’s trade history. I learned about plant cultivation from my abuelita Mercedes on my paternal side and my abuelito Severo on my maternal side. Much of the landscaping strategies that I learned from my grandparents came with them from Mexico when they migrated to Alta California, in the early 1960s, along with my parents. A lot of the building and planting strategies that my family has implored have been in use for over 3,000 years. It is my purpose to revitalize and sustain these ancestral practices through ceremony, household building, and plant cultivation.

My fascination with building and growing food is not only familial, but also physical-skeletal (see my Physical Anthropology 101 blog), and because so, I have an admiration for the morphology of the human hand. The hand is unlike any part of the body, and because we use our hands every day, we literally take them for granted, sometimes failing to notice their full potential use. Our hands are our first weapons of choice in an attack, yet they are the first part of the body that we extend when helping or consoling someone. With our hands, we build shelter, writer letters, prepare food, and unknowingly, make love. Our hand-digit coordination is unique because it is precise, well adapted for creating, and for using and making tools. Hand-digit use coordination has been a part of our human evolutionary past since we inhabited arboreal environments, way before we developed bipedalism. When combined with tool use, the creative use of the hands has the capability of decolonizing our minds and bodies.

My inquiry into the relationship between hand-bone morphology usage and social behavior remains in the early stages. Nonetheless, some preliminary findings I modeled in a recent paper where I discuss the role of the hands, and early human tool making, in the creation of spatial wellness. The paper is published in Vol. 3 No. 4 of the International Journal of Development and Sustainability.


Just because

Just because I write everyday,
it does not mean that
I am lost.

Just because I fly to other lands,
it does not mean that I am
with another.

Just because I live with the wind,
It does not mean that
I don’t need you.

I am a feathered serpent because
I love you…

Facebook Shenanigans LOL

I’m going to fly with a bird that sings
and a guitar that talks. I don’t have a dollar
in my pocket but I’m going to take a
watch with no clock and an old whistle that
pops. Don’t leave the light on fore me,
tonight… I’m not coming home.

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Sometimes I wish I could turn back the
hands of time. Have in my possession a universal
time machine… I would go house to house
delivering the dreams of the departed, while asking
all souls for forgiveness for not being on time.
Sometimes I just wish I could do this... if I could
just wake-up, maybe I could do more...
but I can't, I'm sound asleep...

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Hey Libra the older you get the younger
you live... so plan big...

Withered Roses...

Your love is a memorial of
withered roses, a vast field of dry vines
and thorns. A curse, that leaves no
feeling and no memory. A paralysis
placed on the entire body.
A lost of complete consciousness.

Even the seeds of hope are destroyed,
left above the surface to dry
and die. Leaving in your thought
no memory of what it is to
love, or be loved… only fouls of anger
and blame. The blueprints of
love lost, left to make themselves out
again, without any remembrance.

Your heart and soul, an
ailing spirit, because your love is a
memorial of withered roses…
Grave-hearts left unattended, haunting
all those attempting to love
you – what you desire the most.

Peace and happiness deprived of
a fair chance, inflicted from
the very start. A shallow voice,
a weak mind… Once again,
having to explain… what you hide.

Your love is a memorial of
withered roses… Everything you
thought you knew about
love… it just dies. Everything
once beautiful no longer
alive.

Pájaro Triste III - Fin

Escribe me un poema pájaro súper-híbrido.
Un poema de versos alegres y cariños apegados. Presta
me tu imaginación pájaro dormiento...
Y dame de tu espacio iluminado… amor olvidado.
Ya no estés triste serpiente soñadora...
a llegado tu hora.

Pájaro Triste III

Fin

Pájaro Triste II…

Ya no estés triste pájaro… ya no estés triste.
Hazte la imagen pecho sangriento, espectro de las nubes…
abre tus ojos y mira. Estira tus alas pájaro azulino…
lluvia emplumada, mensajero de almas.
Sana tus heridas con voladas carcajadas,
y alientos al viento…

Pájaro Triste II…

Pájaro Triste I...

No te emociones mi pájaro… no te emociones.
No llores cielo, ya no llores… El tiempo te acostumbrar.
Sal pa' fuera pájaro, sal pa' fuera…
Sal pa' fuera y busca la felicidad. Vuelve a vivir pájaro,
vuelve a sentir… Que tienes mucho que dar…
mucho que recibir.

Pájaro Triste I…

A Letter To Huitzilopochtli

A Letter To Huitzilopochtli

I write to you this letter my friend in hope that you listen and halt the war to an end. It is truth that you were born to find search and destroy what threatens humankind. You are the courageous protector the blue hummingbird man he who bleeds to protect the land. I never doubt the decisions you make blood nourishes the earth and it is all our fate. For you we are forever right march and sing to take-up a fight. When I go into battle with you I want to ride so please tell my sons just how I died. The story is that we are desperate and wrong man is hungry and we forgot your song. We have abused the powers that made us great woman and children have lost their fate. Time is running out and we have nowhere to run god help us now and show us the sun. Use the forces allowed to you at birth the falling feathers and the love of the earth. Beautiful-bird the war has now become wrong no more love for heart just a soul undone. There is no respect for the body with improvish devices only crushed skulls the sight of an ugly crisis. Man, woman, and children left to bleed no prayer for the soul or a ceremony to lead. It has become a real disorder that is greater then death, torture and hell and what will be next. The pain that I feel is now of another kind, I see all of this madness and I want to lose my mind. South-sun brother leader of war show us your mercy and hurt us no more. We promise to live by the wind, the Feathered Serpent and your family - the Obsidian Twin. For now my strength is the brightest moon our sisters love I know the end is soon. I hope you see that I’m still your friend war is peace but we must become human again.
From the collection "Trabajos a Huitzilopochtli."

A Scholar's Dream...

A scholar’s dream is not only a dream of
scholarship, but also a dream of family. For in the
pursuit of scholarship the enthusiasm is
brought home everyday…

And although no one ever understands
a single word the scholar speaks of, all the room is
proud to know that the scholar is excited…

And when that scholar passes, another
one comes forward to pick up the dream, because a
scholars life has nothing do with hard work,
but everything to do with loving family…

An October high...

It’s boring this thesis of mine… and
I feel like a little boy destined to fly. Better I stop
to hear the shuffling of the leaves outside.
The wind through my window and the changing
of a season right before my eyes…
This now the feeling of an October high…

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I can’t wait to see you again.
Anticipation always pushes love forward…
And the space between us…? Well that’s
just a small due… a price that
we must both pay.

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There should be no shame in the game… if everyone is playing to be happy.